Old Energy

The other day I had a wonderful session with Jamilla Neyon at Balance Point Chiropractic. She's an amazing healer and I experienced the gift of this recently. As I was walking to her office, which is right around the corner from our home I found I felt kind of off. My energy wasn't right and I couldn't drink the coffee I ordered at the cafe. Once I got into her office and on the table, we talked about my body and how it's been feeling. With a new born, I've been hunched over nursing him. And my lower back had been tender. She began to work on me and I asked her if the lower back was related to digestion in some way. She confirmed that yes it was. I always have trouble with my digestion, it never seems right. This area relates to second chakra issues of relationships and emotion, creativity etc. As I just had a baby inhabiting part of the second chakra I wasn't suprised. As Jamilla adjusted my neck I noticed I was having trouble relaxing. I felt jittery and tense and I said so out loud. At this Jamilla asked me if she could ask a series questions regarding concepts and as she did she used a muscle resistance test. Muscle resistance uses applied kinesiology to get feedback from the body regarding many things including allergies, muscle bone health, and other things. Jamilla was using it to test emotional concepts. As she placed one hand on my lower intestines and called out these concepts we found that I was unable to resist her pressure on my hand when the concept of grief was called out. After she found that concept she kept asking questions to narrow in on the emotional trigger point. I found this very similar to what I would do in a session. She was narrowing in on a picture or an emotion that I had been holding onto. As I would do with a client, she narrowed in on family vs. friends, immediate family (kids and spouse/exes) vs. larger family (ie parents, cousins siblings etc) and once we pin pointed the who, she began to ask about time frames. My body would either resists or not depending on the question, and she would follow down the path of non resistance. It turns out there was some grief from my 31st year, regarding my ex. Once we found this point she directed me to hold a pulse point and breathe through the emotion. At the time I couldn't find a conscious representation of the event. As I laid there, a sickness begin to come up & out of my body. I began to shiver uncontrollably, as my core temperature dropped. Jamilla's gracious healing allowed me to lie on the table under warm blankets and heating pads. When I was warm enough I began to walk home, but couldn't make it all the way. My husband came to pick me up and drove me home to bed. I spent three days with the flu in bed sleeping most of the time, only waking to nurse my baby or feed my daughter. As I laid there I searched in the 31st year for that picture. What I found looked like a piece of meat stuck in your teeth, or something left in the back of the fridge too long. It was old, and hidden, dark and rotten. As I brought it up and out of my energetic body I viewed a picture there of my first perception of dishonesty in that relationship. And more than that a sense of betrayal came with it. This event had been covered over by a few more years of issues, and so had been laying quiet, disturbing my digestion. Over the last couple years I have worked on this area a lot, but I share this with you to illustrate two things. One, Balance Point Chiropractic is amazing, and if you need a chiropractor I recommend Jamilla with all my heart. Two, working energy and healing your body and spirit is process. It feels at times, like you'll never work through it all. As I said to Jamilla at the close of our session, How long was I going to hold onto that?. We both laughed, because it's such a human feeling. We want our healing done clean, and fast. But healing takes time, and attention. Even when you think you've cleaned up all the residuals of a affecting moment, you find yourself returning to it; cleaning up one more piece. It takes attention to cleanly move these energies out of our space, and even when we do, sometimes the pattern of behavior is so strong for us, that we fill that healed space with more of the same energy. Hence recreating the same emotional moments again and again. It's humbling indeed and a wonderful reminder to pay attention to my body. Even if I think I've worked that space enough. And a reminder that growth and healing sometimes take time and grace.